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MOM’S STRUGGLE

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

First of all, I want to say, I want to dedicate my speech in front here for the person who always give her love forever for me eventhough she was not here anymore. Yeah, she was my mom.

Mother, the person that very complicated. She cares everything about me. She always want to be the listener of all my problem and give me her shoulder as the most convenient place to shed all my tear. But, she never want to share her problem. She always said, she was alright, and hiding all of her problem.

After the divorce, my life was changed. Especially for my mom. She became a single parent, and she have to think how to feed her children. My old sister was still studying in the university that time. I was in the senior high school. And my young sister still in the elementary school. But, my mom never showed to us how she’ll be feed us. Although, my mom just was had a big problem in her life and being a single parent.

With a little money that had left, my mother try to open a business. It was just a small shop. With a little bit of kitchen needs, such as eggs, rice, cooking oil, wheat flour, etc. With all of the effort, my mother can prove that she can struggle eventhough my father divorce her. My old sister can graduate her college and got the job with high salaries, I can go to the college and got the scholarship, and my young sister, can studying in school without having worry about the cost of school.

My mother try to be an independent person. She never told us if she had a financial problem. She never showed to us if she was sick. She was never really want if her children bothered because of her. She try to solve of her problem by herself. Really, sometimes, I wish I can read my mom’s mind. I really want to know, what she tought, what she feels, and also what is she really wanted.

Being a single parent is not easy. I can see that. My mother has to be more extra energy. Beside to feed her children, she has to be more extra to watch her children, who are growing up. About their social intercourse, especially with the opposite sex. My mother very protective with that, because she never want her children got something that undesirable because of association. So that, my mother makes a new role, such as, giving the details information if we want to have walk out with our friends. Actually, it’s very bothering us. But, I can feels now, when she was not here, I feels lonely. No one waiting at home when I come home. There is no one to call and hear her worried sound when I come home late.

            But, I really proud of her. Just like any other mother who divorced, she try to established to be a father when needed. It is not easy. Sometimes she has to be assertive. But, sometimes she has to be care. I know it is not easy palyed double role. So that, I try to understand and follow of everything that she told me. Well, eventhough sometimes, I’m lying with her. Now, my deep regret because of my fault.

            With all of her responsibilities, my mother still could give her children the basic education to force this life. Teaches us to live independently.  Being more stronger than the other children. And the most important thing that she given to us, be patient and sincere person also teach us to always think positive for all the events that happen in life.

Mom, I’m sorry I can’t be the best for you, but you have to know, that I love so much.

I’m sorry that I was make you dissapointed, but really, now, I miss you so much.

You’ll always be my idol forever. I love you mom.